Post by timethrift on Dec 6, 2014 12:04:02 GMT -5
Last weekend I wound up in St.Pauls Hospital. Pnemonia........nothing new for me. But, the call I got at home after leaving hospital was very new. I have been called to the resperoligist. Apparently, according to the caller, it's imperitive that I attend this metting, next Thursday, December 11/2014.
I have been Quit for 8 years. They were great, and I mean GREAT, years..... Freedom from addiction is a blessing, an awakening to life, real life.
I've run the gauntlet of blaming myself. I didn't Quit soon enough. I shouldn't have inhaled. I knew better. Looking back on my smoking 'carrear' I never truly liked smoking. But couldn't bring myself to stop.
I can hear my lungs grumbling, I've been listening to them for years. But chest xrays never showed anything. They found it this time by running barium through my system, them taking an extended CT scan of my lungs......20 minutes. 20 minutes to discover what I have silently feared for so long.
How do I feel?
I suppose the big'st would be Stupid, after that it would have to be, filled with emotion. (If you can name one, I'm feeling it.)
I'm so GRATEFULL to the Quit Now site for providing support for the past years, Of course it was the members who really pulled it togeather for me.
If your thinking of Quitting, or are Quit, remember to enjoy life on life's terms. Smoking really does kill. I know........
Bertram.........
